Jesus Tap-Dancin' Christ

MY introduction thread! How joyous.

Okay, here's the skinny on me:

I'm 21 in 18 days (Sept 3, 2003), and since i have no class on Thursday, I plan on being royally hung over. I live in Minnesota--a crappy twon called Winona. I'm studying physics right now, and I will almost assuredly get a BS in math as well.

I'm a lazy sot--well, unmotivated would be more precise. I just don't care enough do do much, really. I work at McDonald's (which is the biggest goddamned hellhole in all of Creation), and I hate it very much. I'm a sort-of atheist/sort of deist/sort of agnostic/undergone a weird religious experience. That doesn't make much sense, but neither does the concept of religion, especially Christianity (though if Islam was more prominent, I'd likely be saying Islam instead of Christianity, being more exposed to it). I try to be rational whenever possible, but my lack of sanity tends to throw that out th ewindow.

I suffer from severe depression, and am currently off of meds, and likely to drop therapy after next week. Yay me. My middle-school years were the worst of my life, since I had to file assault charges once, and had at least one attempt on my life by other students. Being 80 punds and 4'10 for three years in a row sucks, especially if you know more than 90% of your classmates combined (I literally once knew more about a class than the teacher) and aren't exactly socially orientated.

That would be fairly weird, considering that philisophically/politically I'm a social anarchist, whcih has brought confusion many a time at parties (I get dragged along, and I usually end up telling one too many dead baby jokes there). What it boils down to is that people have a moral obligation to help their fellow man in whatever ways that they can (hence my recent contribution to the ACLU--I'm broke, so I chose one orginzation ). However, no government is legitimate at all, as they subvery moral autonomy and exert power over the members. Being under someone's power is an immoral situation to be in, hence states are immoral to exist. However, given that there are states(and barring colonizing a barely subsitent world with like minded people, there will always be states), I find it far better for enforced social practices rather than letting peopel ignore it because they want a new SUV or some other crap while Africans starve and are forced to fight as children.

I tend also not to make much sense when I talk, since I sort of get my thoughts translated directly into words, and when you think faster than you talk or type, this has problems.

I have great blue eyes (or so I'm told by most everyone who looks at them--including that one gay guy who I retroactively realized was hitting on me sort of). I have brown hair that I have to cut short, or it will grow into a messy 'fro--no joke. It grows fast too--like 2-3 inches in two months. It makes my barber happy though. I am a virgin, and it only bothers me when people talk about their sex lives in front of me. Those rat bastards.

I give 20% or greater tips when I go out to eat. I have given a 40 dollar tip on a 60 dollar meal once, but she really deserved it since she kept me from paying a 20 dollar cleaning bill (so she got the money instead). I feel bad when I give money to homeless people, but I feel worse when I don't. God, I hate having morality--always leaves me feeling guilty about SOMETHING that I theoretically can do something about, but don't out of basic apathy. In my depressive cycles, I think this makes me a terrible person (especially since I know the difference).

That's more or less me.

Enlighten Me

Sheesh! How can you call yourself lazy when you are studying physics, will probably get a degree in math, too----AND you work at McDonald's.....If you're lazy, then I must be in a coma...I find your thoughts on anarchy interesting, but I just wonder what an anarchist would offer in place of government to meet the needs of a society. But that's another thread...This one is to meet you officially and to say WELCOME!

ooh_child

How does one say welcome to someone who's already been here? Being a newbie, I guess I should say howdy?

I will give you MAJOR kudos on the tipping thing. Some people can be so cheap!

MHB

Darwin26

Hope you can give things time to mellow out... a lot of life is learning to laff at yourself...don't take your self or the world quite so seriously.
pleasure meeting you