meritocrat

Do you want sympathy?

When I was in school, I would get 'teased' (doesn't everybody in some context?) but it does not affect me now. I feel it depends on the personality of the person.

Oxidizing Material

Hey, <deleted by moderator>.

School has made my life a living hell due to idiotic bullies and people with the do-nothing attitude like yours. I've been the main subject of torment for 8 years now, and I sure as fuck haven't gained from it.

I doubt you'll have to know what it's like to be so scorned you can only think of death as a means for solving either side, to the point of trying to hang yourself or spending a night just staring at your father's hunting rifles debating on whether to bring it to school or just go on with the days.

I also think that you'll be lucky enough to live 8 years without being called at least one name a day. There's only so many times you can hear "fag", "homo", "nazi", "loser", "crazy" and every variant inbetween before your mind starts to numb. Getting the feeling that you get when everyone you know calls you these things is not as character building as you'd hope. In fact, ask me where my self esteem is, <deleted by moderator>

And wouldn't it be grand if you never had to be subjected to weekly beatings by groups of kids years older than you who hold you so you're unable to defend yourself and then leave you bleeding and alone in a parking lot nearly every week for three years. And with all the character I developed, I'm sure there'd be some sort of legal reprocussion, until you realise you're full of shit and the legal courts don't work in this matter so you're basically left with the bruises and scars you endure without any compensation. Wait, I forgot, the character more than makes up for it.

I'm sure <deleted by moderator>, because you know nothing of which you speak. Being teased in elementary school and being subjected to brutal gang beatings, razor-blade rape, daily derogetory comments that destroy one's self esteem and value of self worth isn't condusive to happy, fufilling life.

I'm sure you'll never have to know what it feels like to walk down a hallway every 5 days of the week and pretend not to notice the people staring at you, the insults yelled at you, the spit being spit upon you, the body checks into lockers by people who travel in groups as to not be able to be fought back, the theft and vandalization of your property, the stares, the grimaces, the raw hatred, the idiocy, the sneers, the jeers, the finger pointing, the whispering, the giggling, the laughing, the items thrown at your head, the mockers, the imitators, the shit disturbers who love to make accusations to admin and police alike about you carrying a bomb or a gun in your trench, the names, the laughter, the heartless, and senseless esteem raping things that destroy a person into the ground until they have no will, or wish left to fight. And for that, I'm fucking jealous of you. You'll never endure what I, and a million other kids do every single day of their lives.

You'll never know what it feels like to be dangling three feet off the ground by a noose that failed to break your neck as you try to snap handcuffs off your wrist so you can break the rope before you strangle to death.

You'll never know what a loaded .44 barrel feels like against the back of your throat when your big toe is pressed up against the trigger.

You'll never know what feeling the wind wrap around your hair while looking 300 feet below to the ground with nothing between you and falling but your own mind and feet feels like while you debate whether or not you could force yourself to "slip".

And I hope to whatever entity you hold dear that you'll never feel yourself at the center of a circle of 11 eighteen year old males, being kicked and punched and spit upon and cut and left bleeding behind a mall barely able to move your legs to crawl to a payphone to dial 911 before you lose consciousness.

You are an <deleted by moderator>. Wearing your big black visor cap and puffing a corncob pipe pretending to know the strategy of life by letting the "little inconveniences" build your strength. You tell me, which built my strength back: the knowledge I lived after being jumped and unable to identify my attackers, or the breathing machine I was hooked up to keeping my lungs working through oxygen feed. <deleted by moderator>.

Oh, and one last note. If you think there's any distinction between "bullying" and "assault and battery" or any other crime, you're wrong again. Whether it's being called a "nazi fag" by half a class of 30, or when I'm being bashed into a wall head first by some guy because he "didn't like my face", it's all the fucking same.

<deleted by moderator>

(Oxidizing Material - while you have cause for strong emotions, you still need to follow the behavior rules like everyone else. - Michael)

meritocrat

If I'm called a 'fag', or homo then that doesn't affect me. I'm not gay, so why should it?

winstonjen

Probably because people who are bullied become insecure due to their treatment, and begin to feel that the bullies may be right.

Oxidizing Material

I'm not a Nazi either, but it pisses me off all the same

Walross

meritocrat, what makes you think that being teased is the same as being bullied? How many times do people have to point out to you that bullying is so much more? If you had been bullied in school, you would understand this.

sweep

*can I come out from beneath the table now*

meritocrat. your balls are either incredibly large or the moderator swiped that missing text prior to your arrival.

Opera Nut

Teasing is disguised aggression. I've been put thru the wringer of "Oh I was just teasing" or "Oh, you're TOO sensitive" before by bullying in laws.
Read John Bradshaw, Ph.D., HEALING THE SHAME THAT BINDS YOU.
He goes into lots of detail about how teasing and picking on and bullying are quite abusive to many people for decades and haunt them for years.

meritocrat

Teasing is a form of bullying.

Yggdrasill

Teasing is not the same thing as bullying. While teasing is something that does not intend to do harm, bullying is something that has the ultimate goal of making the person subjected to the bullying feel bad. You can only say that teasing is a form of bullying in the same way you can say that jogging once per year is a form of boot camp training.