Totalitarianist

Unless you are like myself. Many people are like myself, and take care of their skin, and are small, weak, and appear inferior to everyone else, and hence appear childlike.

Good. Only almost too much.

HeatherD

Sorry, I guess I did miss the phrasing there.

Interesting; small, weak, and inferior appearing men are not celebrated in our culture. What, pray tell, do you plan to do about that?

Beauty is over emphasised in our Western culture but I should also point out that it is usually reserved for women. Men are "allowed" to grow old gracefully. And I rarely find "pretty boys attractive", I'd much rather have Harrison Ford before Leonardo diCaprio.

But then you did mention being "childlike". Do you wish to remain so for eternity?

Herman Hedning

Translation: I'm great at obfuscation - try to understand this if you can!

Totalitarianist

Yes. Some call me girlish or effeminate or inferior looking, but I prefer childlike, which is the same thing. Would not you wish to remain childlike forever?

The interesting thing is that I have not "grown out" of any of my interests and beliefs. I have the same interests and beliefs I had when I was four, only in a more sophisticated form. I am dependant on older people, I cannot cook or do most "practical" things correctly; I only recently learned to do many "practical" things, and even then only a few minor ones, only because visitors were in the habit of laughing at me. I wear the same style of clothing as I did when I was much younger. My favourite film is The Jungle Book. Truly, I am fit only for a child's body. Growing into a new body will undoubtedly cause depression. Many a day and night will be devoted to the thought of suicide. At other times, I predict, it will be the thought of future science. I am still young and childlike, though, which is good.

Totalitarianist

It is actually quite easy to understand, owing to the simplistic nature of the sentences. Ask anyone here, and they will tell you that they had no difficulty in understanding it, since their reading comprehension is satisfactory. The problem lies in your reading comprehension. In fact, I could paste the writings of a brilliant author, and since your reading comprehension is so inadequate, you would be inclined to say:

"Translation: I'm great at obfuscation - try to understand this if you can!"

Which is in fact the case, because I once posted an essay by a distinguished author -- I even gave the source at the end of the post -- but someone, who never read the end of the post in which I indicated the source, responded to the whole thread by saying that I intentionally wrote in confusing sentences. By saying this, the person proved his own stupidity by saying, though he assumed that I had written it, that the gifted writer who had in fact written the post, Francis Galton, wrote in needlessly complicated, pedantic nonsense -- which is not the case, as no man denies.

People, in general, have a tendency to assume that precise sentences, though long, are a deliberate attempt by the writer of those sentences to confuse the readers of those setences.

HeatherD

Actually, I'm starting to wonder if you are transsexual to some degree. I'm transsexual and I'm quite familar with my own problems.

The onset of puberty is very distressing, your use of the moniker "Lady Anteros", your apparent superiority feelings. A large percentage of transsexuals also show higher than average IQ's, lowered self-esteem, self-loathing and digust with a body that "just doesn't fit."

You have also mentioned in an earlier thread that you consider yourself homosexual but not a "homosexualist" I had a similar feeling at, and around, puberty, I found men attractive, but somehow I knew I wasn't gay.

If I'm way off the mark on this one, just ignore me, I'll ignore this thread. If not and you want to talk, PM me and we can discuss it, I'd like to help.

Herman Hedning

Yes, oh great one, the problem is most certainly my inferiority to your great intellect. Also, please note that English is not my first language. But, perhaps you could rephrase your answer in terms simple enough for a lowly person like myself to understand?